bohemian uverture of endless madness

long time i didn't write anything... it's because my fingers hurt too much..i couldn't write :D hehe...i'm kidding...it's beacuse i'm mentaly overworked ... i need expert help (read: psychiatrist) ...sometimes really :)
this week started strange... or better ... i started strange ... i used to be more easy... but it's getting more difficult... bleee.. i hate squl ...
i'm getting obsessed with some things: with doing nothing, drinking coffee, with a person that i like :/ , with my endless pesimismus... and this moaning won't help me forward...
the bible said the second-born children are god's children (book of moses, i guess).... so, dear god why don't you just help me ? :D
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ok, i see, he won't help me :( he's a bad guy

.... vacation.... this is now the one and only word that i know.... i need vacation