in progress...
...or was it never there... the touch i need ?
i guess it was
but... don't know what you've got till' it's gone...the sad thruth
how to wake up your mind if there are too much things too keep it weak and sleepy ?
how to do a little wrong to do a better right ?
why is the roof ever falling apart when the walls are collapsing ?
but we don't know, we can't know, or may we shouldn't know ??!!!
too much much questions, false questions for true answers
whenever i stop and take a pause of the selfish thinking the true question sounds:
why i'm forgetting on that our souls aren't painted like the wings of butterfly,... they're much more colored, much more brighter and wonderful ??- it just depends of what we wanna see
walking on a path again... standin on the crossroad.. don't know where to go...
the division bell inside me rings.. it laughs, it cries, it whispers... it blinds my mind...
it gets estranged, it's getting colder
away too far, without your shoulder
invisible, but too much bright
too late to hide, too wrong to light
but not to sail away
but not to shine the way
(dedicated to an old friend)
Some words about my addiction: the wonderful black brown liquid called coffee :D
So, Coffee is a stimulant - a drug, prepared from roasted seeds, called coffee beans.
Coffee was first consumed in the 9th century, when it was discovered in the highlands of Ethiopia.
From there, it spread to Egypt and Yemen, and by the 15th century had reached Armenia, Persia, Turkey, and northern Africa. From the Muslim world, coffee spread to Italy, then to the rest of Europe and the Americas.
Today, coffee is one of the most popular beverages worldwide.
So this black lyquid has its home in the black continent, Afrika...and when we look on a map, there is also a area called Kafa, in Gana or anywhere near there.
Coffee has played an important role in many societies throughout modern history. In Africa and Yemen, it was used in religious ceremonies. As a result, the Ethiopian Church banned its consumption until the reign of Emperor Menelik II of Ethiopia.
It was banned in Ottoman Turkey in the 17th century for political reason, as a sign of rebellion against Europe.
The first countries in production of coffee are Brazil, Vietnam, Indonesia, Columbia.
The influences of coffee are similar like the ones of tea... it brings stimulus effects out... it means that increases heart pressure. Too much coffee can couse a heart disease or cell damage. Coffee appears to reduce the risk of Alzheimer's disease, Parkinson's disease, heart disease, diabetes mellitus type 2, cirrhosis of the liver...
But i say anyway: a cup of coffee a day, brings all troubles away :))
long time i didn't write anything... it's because my fingers hurt too much..i couldn't write :D hehe...i'm kidding...it's beacuse i'm mentaly overworked ... i need expert help (read: psychiatrist) ...sometimes really :)
this week started strange... or better ... i started strange ... i used to be more easy... but it's getting more difficult... bleee.. i hate squl ...
i'm getting obsessed with some things: with doing nothing, drinking coffee, with a person that i like :/ , with my endless pesimismus... and this moaning won't help me forward...
the bible said the second-born children are god's children (book of moses, i guess).... so, dear god why don't you just help me ? :D
....
ok, i see, he won't help me :( he's a bad guy
.... vacation.... this is now the one and only word that i know.... i need vacation
Ok... again about the things in my mind... if feels i could explode if i don't write nothing this time :)
So, it's just another normal day...nothing special...like every another one... things happen as they have to... coz actually is everything good for something...
but when i look back... it's like i would drive along the road... just forward ahead and ahead... like the side roads would not exist... even the road doesn't matter... it only matters that i've passed it...
but at the end ... it feels low... coz i spend all the time for to pass it over... but in fact this was only waiting and senseless hoping ...
waaaaa.... i need some real hobbyes :))
Sometimes i think some people are mean, coz they sayin or doin' things that harm you... but do they really now how you're reacting on some things??? how do you feel inside?? is it the egoism carrying them to do it for their own pleasure ? or it's just the fear... to protect ourselves... some kind of modern fighting during evolution process ?? i guess both.... and i guess if people would feel the harm of other they wouldn't be like this..... many things don't seem as like they are in the fact...
i'll continue next time.. coz i'm too tired to do it now :/
I'm thinking about some things... about principles and worlds again... and i feel harm cause i realized that someone who said something very nice don't mean it really...
Following words are delaying in my mind "words words words no matter from the heart" (W. Shakespeare)... and some people are like this.... or seem like this
and it's in our nature... when we get a finger we want the whole hand... :D
but we don't get it... sometimes we even lose the only finger... and now i would probably say ... some people are like this...
but i don't know... maybe it's only in my mind to except people to do in this way ? but why ? coz i'm doing in this way ? coz i except other people to be like me ?
may the exceptation is the harming thing in my head ?!
Again i'm taking the words of W.Shakespeare: "Exceptations are the roots of all heartache."
Maybe is that the point ...to not except anything when giving something to someone (it can be anything: things, feelings, words,..) ... coz it's something you can lose (when you except too much) ... and someone who has nothing, this one has nothing to lose... and is free...
but i still think so much freedom doesn't exist...
but at least we can try it... :D
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